More May tunes

Here’s a song I haven’t heard in quite a while, Björk’s “Army of Me”:

Stand up
You’ve got to manage
I won’t sympathize

And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me

You’re alright
There’s nothing wrong
Self sufficiency please!
And get to work

And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me
And if you complain once more
You’ll meet an army of me

You’re on your own now
We won’t save you
Your rescue squad
Is too exhausted

Here’s one I discovered in my collection and didn’t even realize I owned. Don’t know how I acquired it. Björk’s “New World”:

A song I’ve long appreciated and listened to an older woman belt out, actually quite beautifully, on karaoke last night, Elton John’s “Don’t Let the Sun Go Down On Me” (here performed lived by him and George Michael):

I can’t light no more of your darkness
All my pictures seem to fade to black and white
I’m growing tired and time stands still before me
Frozen here on the ladder of my life

Too late to save myself from falling
I took a chance and changed your way of life
But you misread my meaning when I met you
Closed the door and left me blinded by the light

Don’t let the sun go down on me
Although I searched myself, it’s always someone else I see
I’d just allow a fragment of your life to wander free
But losing everything is like the sun going down on me

I can’t find the right romantic line
But see me once and see the way I feel
Don’t discard me just because you think I mean you harm
But these cuts I have they need love to help them heal

A very touching song.

Too tired tonight to post up anymore.

Early May tunes in 2016

One that keeps coming across my radar a lot lately, “Paint It Black” by Rolling Stones:

Gnarls Barkley’s “Just a Thought”:

…but I’m fine…

“Transformer” by Gnarls Barkley:

Gnarls Barkley’s “Necromancer”:

Loved that whole Gnarls Barkley album back before it grew in popularity.

“Who Cares” by Gnarls Barkley:

Gnarls Barkley’s “Crazy”:

That’s a haunting and captivating version of his most popular tune…

Gnarls Barkley’s “The Last Time”:

I showcased that song on one of my escort sites I created back in 2007 and remain in love with it forevermore. Adore it completely.

Indeed, the world is watching…

Prayerful tunes for 2016

A song on my mind lately, “Mercy Seat” by Johnny Cash:

Brooding, humbling, haunting tune.

A prayer tune, even for those of us who aren’t religious.

That which we refer to as Lord, I feel you when I take time to pause and listen to beautiful tunes like this. I feel something anyway. The Power. Whatever it is…

Instead of sharing TMI on here tonight that I’ll just wind up marking private tomorrow, let me continue in this vein and post up other songs that get me praying whether I mean to or not. They just evoke it. Or are at least powerful, humbling songs that return to my mind and spirit over and over again, begging to be patiently listened to.

One that immediately springs to mind and regularly resists being ignored is The Blind Boys of Alabama’s “Getting Better (All the Time)”:

I’m not what I ought to be, but I AM better than I used to be. In some important respects. And that’s something. That’s progress on a personal level, and that is meaningful. If not strive for higher, then what?

Like I said, am a long-time agnostic without interest in adhering to any religious attitudes or logic or doctrines. That’s them, and this is me. People can do as they wish. I just hunt for whatever nuggets I find of value, regardless of what they might’ve been intended for originally. There are some beautiful gospel tunes that I will never tire of, particularly from that band. Amazing artists — that much is a fact. Love them. So many of their songs resonate with my spirit and have for many years now. Just adore The Blind Boys of Alabama.

Another beautiful, mesmerizing tune, Jeff Buckley’s rendition of “Hallelujah”:

Bought that album back in the early 2000s. Very sorrowful but worth meditating on regardless.

Heart-breaking, yes. But that’s okay. It really is okay. Sometimes we need to sit with those sides of Truth too. Appears to be necessary for self-exploration and introspection, at least in my case.

Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya
And it’s not a cry that you hear at night
It’s not somebody who’s seen the light
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

Oh God. I feel those lyrics very deeply every time I listen. Cuts to the core.

Yes, that’s what I learned of love too, and it’s wrong. It’s such a harsh way of comprehending loving relations and leads to so much undue pain…

Jeff Buckley’s voice is simply captivating. Stays with a person. The world was blessed to have that man around as long as we did and to receive the fruits of his creativity. We truly were blessed.

Another spell-binding tune by Jeff Buckley, “Corpus Christi Carol”:

Those are a couple painful tunes to take in, so let’s switch gears and head toward an inspiration song from George Harrison, “My Sweet Lord”:

Just love listening to that one. Never tire of it. Represents the mystery of life to me, that which we like to refer to as “God.” It’s a questioning, a seeking, a longing. I doubt any humans are truly immune to it, and those who are I damn-near feel sorry for. It’s an integral part of the human experience, to commune with some sort of higher consciousness so far as we’re individually capable of experiencing it at any given time. It’s all a big question, no certainty. Which presents us with quests to discover, uncover, examine, ponder, grasp at, etc.

Switching back to Johnny Cash tunes, “Hurt”:

Can’t tell you how much I appreciated him covering this Nine Inch Nails tune. Blew the original out of the water over time, good as it was.

Chokes me up every time imagining how hard it was on Johnny existing after June departed. That poor man. He really suffered but wasn’t long to follow. And I understand. Our loved ones can mean the world to us. They can be what it’s ALL about. Nothing matters much without them. Just going through motions. I can sympathize with his plight there, thought can’t imagine what it’s like to be with somebody for that many decades, loving them, and yet having to lose them. I know that man suffered. No question. Though I can appreciate him continuing to do his work on up to the end. But what else could he do? He probably felt the need to stay as busy as possible.

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

I know, Johnny. But we thank you anyway for learning what you did the hard way and passing that along in your own unique style to the rest of us. We’re better off for it.

That was another valuable tune from Johnny Cash titled “Ain’t No Grave (Can Hold My Body Down),” particularly appreciating the art project that went into creating that video specifically. Just an amazing artistic compilation there.

Johnny Cash singing “Man in Black”:

Word, Johnny. Word.

A rendition of “One” by Johnny Cash”:

Awesome song. Indisputably so.

“You Are My Sunshine” by Johnny Cash:

Haven’t heard his rendition of that one before tonight, but long adored that song.

Blind Boys of Alabama performing “Amazing Grace”:

This wretch needs saving, that’s all I know. Gonna have to figure this shit out. Very much looking forward to my sabbatical out of here, beginning late next month.

One I haven’t heard before tonight from the Blind Boys of Alabama, “Look Where He Brought Me From”:

Music break for early spring 2016

Starting off tonight with Don Henley’s “Dirty Laundry,” a perennial favorite:

That one’s been on my mind a lot lately. Loved it for many years though.

A song I can’t help but dig, M.I.A.’s “Paper Planes”:

An oddity I’ve enjoyed since the ’90s, Cake’s “Italian Leather Sofa”:

Another I love and have yet to tire of, “Too Much Time On My Hands” by Styx:

Too much truth in that song…

And that performance was broadcast in 1981…the year I was born. Life’s full of all sorts of goofy ironies if you take notice. lol

Another song I happen to have loved since forever, “Tom Sawyer” by Rush:

Which that video’s description box claims came out in 1981. The eeriness continues… ha!

Switching gears, “Paranoid Android” by Radiohead:

An amazing live performance, Portishead’s “Roads”:

Already posted that on here somewhere at least once before, but who cares? Beautiful, sorrowful song. Loved that tune since the ’90s.

Got a lot of changes on the horizon…been a long year, a long couple of years, a long many years. Time likes to tick by slowly in my world…

But perception is everything apparently. So I’ll deal with that going forward. Deeper personal thoughts can stay inside my head tonight.

Portishead’s “Glory Box”:

A song I’ve loved for several years, KT Tunstall’s “Other Side of the World”:

A rendition I’ve never heard before by Fiona Apple of the famous Beatles’ song “Across the Universe”:

Hmmm. Kept thinking throughout that if she was directly, personally, and physically impacted by that carnage I bet it’d change her world. Just the thought that happened across my mind by the 2:39 mark. And I don’t doubt that will come across to some as a cynical consideration. But welcome to reality. None of us are above it. Certainly helps what attitude you adopt within it while dealing with it. But still. Try to entirely not be impacted by life and see what kind of a life that renders to you. Just sayin’ is all.

A better Beatles’ song rendition, IMO, Johnny Cash singing “In My Life”:

The virtues of gangsta rap

Not in the mood to type much tonight, but after relistening to some of the Rihanna songs posted up on here earlier, I’m moved to state the positive side of gangster rap (after criticizing it numerous times on here) in terms of ways we have benefited from exposure to it.

The main thing is instilling a sense of rebellion and questioning authority. That actually I continue to consider a valuable contribution from rap and hip-hop in general. Can call into attention the corruption of the “powers that be” as well as our own corruption in choosing to milk the System in whatever ways. That’s useful, IMO, to get people thinking about that sort of thing, questioning this reality and what we’re told and how shit breaks down across various socioeconomic lines.

But even when a rap song doesn’t appear to advance that agenda, the aggressiveness of the tunes still can help stimulate that inner angst and bring it to the surface. Because we all know we’re experiencing it, just apparently manifests as anxiety and depression when suppressed. A whole lot of us are not satisfied with what’s been presented to us as the new status quo. People are falling between the cracks, but more than that, we’re all sacrificing our freedoms to this whole new way of life, unprecedented in all of human history — yet we’re acting like we’re on autopilot more often than not and accepting “official” and “expert” narratives without taking time to contemplate deeply for ourselves.

I do. It’s a favorite pastime here. Just what I’m noticing in most folks I encounter out in this great big wilderness we’ve constructed into a concrete jungle society. Best of luck with this phase in the game, folks. Won’t pretend I can adapt to all that is confronting me. Likely can’t. C’est la vie. Telling it like it is there. Blame lack of ambition. That’s fine. It’s more than that, but I’m thoroughly used to how I tend to be perceived by others.

Anyway, stimulating our aggression can have both positive and negative consequences. All depends on what we decide to do with it. And that is impacted by our programming. Input comes from everywhere. No one is immune. But sometimes arousing anger is useful and needed, very necessary. Keeping that spirit alive and appreciated has both its benefits and drawbacks. I understand however many out there desire a world where violence is eradicated and peace is somehow widespread installed, but the way people envision going about bringing that reality into being is what winds up being most troubling. Won’t work as their logic leads them to oftentimes believe, this much I can just about guarantee.

Welcome to the mass of paradoxes known as human life. Have fun sorting out this tangled web. None of us probably ever will be able to. I guess the trick is to not let it drive us too nutty in the meantime. Life has its gifts and blessings — always important to keep that in mind too. Existence is about taking in perspectives. That appears to me what it all ultimately boils down to, fundamentally-speaking. Learn from what we can in terms of navigation and according to what we desire, where we opt to steer ourselves. That’s an individual quest and cannot help but be so. Calls on us and asks of us, whether we choose to heed it or not. That’s what I’m wrestling with currently anyway.

But I am reminded of so many enjoyable rap songs, even the ones that came to feel like guilty pleasures. Walked away from plenty of it and haven’t cared to listen to much new stuff coming out. But still. I can appreciate the value where it’s evident. Conjuring up the “bad motherfucker” state of mind is sometimes necessary and worthwhile.  lol  Sometimes we need to tap into that part of who we are, whether to defend our interests or those of others we care about, or to reject bullshit we see going on. To take a stand. To say “Fuck that!” Not playing the game the way someone else might envision. Stupid to play it that way. Go black market if you need to. Just go entrepreneurial and I’m happy for ya. Do what you need to do.

There are a bunch of “scripts” out here circulating that influence our thinking and impact our modes of action. Get into our heads and convinces us of wrong-headed shit, no matter how good the intentions may be of those who push them. People tend to believe what they hear repeated to them long enough. And that brings us to the downside of too much of gangsta rap’s lyrical content. Unfortunate how much of that turned out. But that’s a topic for another time. Said what I came to say here tonight.

Rihanna music (an exploration)

Grown accustomed to hearing a couple tunes by Rihanna lately since they’re played non-stop everywhere we go. Gives me a sick feeling in the stomach acknowledging out loud that I actually like this first one a bit. But it is what it is. C’est la vie.

“Bitch Better Have My Money”:

Can’t help but like that tune. Just do.

A live performance of “Love the Way You Lie”:

Good performance of that one.

Here’s her video of “Pour It Up”:

Never listened to that song prior to right now. That’s the type of shit from her that turns me off. Yeah, I dig its rhythm. But dang. That’s the most narcissistic, self-aggrandizing, gruesomely apathetic piece of mainstream media I’ve sat with in a minute. Seriously. Reminds me of the ’90s gangsta rap in how we all tended to embrace it despite the lyrics, claiming it was all about the catchy beat. Almost like if we’re sold on the sound, then the lyrics get funneled in subliminally without us fully realizing how they wind up affecting us down the road after countless repetitions beat them into our psyches.

Here’s “What’s My Name? ft. Drake”:

Never heard that song before tonight.

“Man Down”:

Never knew of that one before tonight either. Huh. Hmmm.

Never imagined I’d pause to listen to her songs or watch their corresponding videos. And now that I’ve done so, I’m good for a long time. No need in doing that again. Curiosity now sated in that department.

More tunes for an extremely late night up

“Beautiful People” — Marilyn Manson:

In the process of uploading to youtube one I’ve been meaning to post up for a long while now, Pantera’s “Walk”:

“Sweet Dreams” — Marilyn Manson:

“Apple of Sodom” — Marilyn Manson:

Wouldn’t upload this stuff if I didn’t enjoy it. So it deserves to be posted up on here when the mood strikes.

“Stripped” — Shiny Toy Guns:

Even if some of my videos might seem a bit odd to others. I aim to go with what feels right at the time. Some stuff inevitably winds up lost in translation. ha

“All Mine” — Portishead:

Yes, I have some seemingly (arguably) creepy songs in my collection. hehe Welcome to it. Such is human life…

“Lonesome Valley” — Fairfield Four: