One man’s struggle with quitting drinking

A timely video on the subject of one man’s struggle with alcohol addiction:

I relate with so much of what he said in there. Know the feelings expressed inside and out by now. The drinking game definitely does get weirder over time, as does the barscene. Weirder and scarier once you realize how much of a grip it really has on you.

That man’s name is Noah (a.k.a. BigNoKnow) btw. And here are a few other videos I watched by him today that share about his journey thus far, beginning with where he’d been sober for a year:

Going back 4 years, his dealings with relapses and trying to get sober:

His decision to start drinking again in 2016, with the goal of keeping it under control:

Brave of him to put all this info out on the internet so that the rest of us can observe and relate and hopefully learn vicariously. He shares some very raw details, particularly when it comes to his struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts. I very much relate with the feelings he expressed throughout, as well as being familiar with some of the logic he was operating with at various points. My own mind is an insane chatterbox too, and the thought of being trapped with it forever with no means escape is a daunting prospect.

Actually helped me today to stumble back across his channel. Watched a little from him in the past and was already subscribed, but then his 1-year sober video came up in my feed and gave me pause, leading to binge-watching a few of his videos this evening. Nothing better to do since I handicapped myself and am laying around feeling miserable today.

Daunting is the best word to describe how it’s making me feel on this day. So tired of this insane game — long past being fed up with it, and yet still playing it. We definitely are cruising toward a worse outcome. Seems inevitable. I feel super lucky that I’ve gotten by relatively unscathed as much as I have so far, but it’s always a gamble and not one I’m likely to beat all odds on indefinitely.

Anyway, just wanted to save his videos here.

“Filip Syta: Do What You Love Even If It Kills You”

The worst addiction for a human being is a monthly salary.

Word. Couldn’t agree more.

Very interesting listening to that man describe his time working for Google. This is what I keep saying: we humans are being treated more and more like pets these days. Now corporations have figured out how to groom us in this way so as to create dependency. All ye men who take issue with (some) women being treated as coddled princesses, notice that males are now receiving a similar treatment too through select corporate entities. And I don’t believe this new trend will fizzle out anytime soon, at least not for those in techie and other specialty fields deemed to be of high economic/commercial importance currently.

Incomes are a motherfucker though. Safety net, yes. Glad to avoid that, stressful as it can be at times to remain self-employed.

“Brad Lomenick: Be Humble, Stay Hungry, Always Hustle”

Really appreciated that conversation. Will re-listen to it again probably later today.

“Jordan Belfort: In-depth interview with The Wolf of Wall Street”

Jordan Belfort’s website: http://jordanbelfort.com.

Yeah, he sounds rather sheisty, but still interesting to listen to. Makes some good points and offers worthwhile advice.

Re-watching tonight: “Deep Water”

Watched that one before a couple years ago or more. Emotional film when you really sit with it and ponder and pay attention.

It’s about a man in a race around the world by boat who gives up in the end, realizing he has to lie to distort his navigation trail, troubled by a long period at sea in isolation.

Watch and see how it affects you.