“Nihilism Part 2: Luciferianism – MGTOW”:
Listened to this video this morning (after waking up at the crack of dawn yet again, still unable to sleep well, as is so common) after reading a bit yesterday on the concept of Luciferianism, something I’m not familiar with aside from hearing the term lobbed around occasionally. Nihilism, on the other hand, is a concept I am a bit more familiar with and have delved into trying to comprehend in recent years, including some of the works of Nietzsche. And I must admit that nihilism continues to perplex me.
Not interested in saying much on here today…that sort of thing just always gets me thinking, and worrying. I understand what the man there was saying toward the end about deep introspection being necessary to seek out justifiable meaning and values in one’s own life in order to basically resist this nihilistic slide (if we want to call it that), and I’ve been mired in that process for a couple years now at least. The “existential panic” I reference on here sometimes is a multi-headed beast springing out of revelations from life choices but also all that I read and and listen to and try to grasp, along with this general sense of growing apathy and despair that I never seem capable of shaking for more than a day or two anymore.
But the topic of Luciferianism came across the radar, so I went in search of more information and came up with several sources, that video included among them. He broke it down more clearly than most else I found on the subject. When he speaks of Transhumanism as being like a modern and advanced form of Luciferianism, that makes sense. Where I get troubled, perhaps because I am a stubborn Luddite, is with the notion that humans really think we can become equal to that which we call God (i.e., the “Godhead”). This continues to strike me as ludicrous, as not only foolish but so incredibly fatally so. No, whatever is produced by those driven toward “post-human” ambitions is not something my human mind, heart and soul wants any part in. Not simply out of fear of the unknown though…just extreme discomfort with the enormous and insatiable strivings of our egos.
While I reject adherence to any given religion and can very much appreciate the value of reasoning and skepticism, I try to always keep in mind just how fallible we can’t help but be, including what we’ve convinced ourselves is perfectly reasonable and rational. So much of this blows my mind with its inescapable paradoxes — everywhere you look.
So I keep asking myself when reaching these impasses, if not there then where? Where else might one turn for something that makes enough sense to be held on to, to become grounded in so far as that is possible? Yes, new information and ideas will float us on and on and I understand that one is probably better off remaining fairly flexible when it comes to examining this life. But we also seem to require some footing, lest we set adrift and get completely lost along the way. Which is kinda how I feel now most days. Never sure what to grab hold of, what with pretty much everything (if not absolutely everything) coming to appear illusory at its core. Social and moral constructs. But then again, who’s to say that some of our human-made constructs aren’t based on natural phenomena and rules that transcend our understanding of them — we’re just grasping in their general direction due to an intuitive comprehension of their significance, their realness within the patterns of life.
Then my mind gets full and I’m drawn down and back to tired. People like to tell me these issues are rather easy, or that it is me who complicates them, that it’s just a matter of selecting a worldview or moral code and sticking with it. Easy as that. I envy the relative ease they express. Isn’t proving easy for me for some reason, not when it comes to maintaining footing and feeling solid enough to not be troubled by what all is flowing around us. Sometimes I do worry that this rising stream of questions and claims and mind-fuckery will eventually blur and distort everything I ever thought I knew or cared about and that I will wind up permanently lost. Perhaps others worry about this at times too. And perhaps that too is an illusive concern to where maybe a person has to let go and get lost in order to find out what’s really real.
I don’t know. Won’t claim to know much. But I will turn my attention back to other philosophical teachings and Jungian analyses since those appear more fruitful than the nihilistic maze.