And then he decided to go away, once again. Just up and out of my life, this time for real, so he says. Why? I don’t know. Says it doesn’t work, partly because we do not communicate well. Always said we’d remain friends, but now that’s not looking like the case either. Why? Things seemed to be improving between us for a while and I was feeling better about us. But now…all over, once again. And I don’t completely understand what happened this time.
I am so tired of this yo-yo bullshit. Fucking depressing…
And then he calls and tries to act normal all over again. We fight and we feud and we fuss, then we get along for a while, then something stupid arises and we’re right back to going ’round and ’round for a spell until we tire of that. I won’t pretend to fully understand anything other than that relationships are complicated. Just because we love each other doesn’t mean we get along terrifically, and such is life apparently.